The closer we get to travelling the world, the more I feel a part of it.
It’s an unexpected evolution. As the self-appointed Queen of Dreamers, feeling grounded and present in the moment is not usually my strong suit, yet here I am, feeling fully engaged in the space I am living in, right now.
The passing of time seems to have altered, and I can’t change it back. No longer do I find myself wishing my life away, eager to begin anew. Now time is precious, and the people I choose to share it with are even more so.
Because that is all that stands between me and the future this whole blog has been built around. Time. 15 weeks of time to be exact. And it is this time that I now hold of the highest value.
I’ve been dreaming and planning of my new life for nineteen long months. Now I suddenly feel awakened to the life I am already living. I can see its beauty clearly, and am grateful for it every day.
It’s as though the tides have turned, and slowly the waters of my future are creeping in, gently lapping at my feet, rising ever deeper with each passing day.
So I’ve decided to make a splash.
What you do today is important, because you are exchanging a day of your life for it.
Little things are making me happy. I’m teaching Lee to drive (I swore I wouldn’t travel with him until he could legally get behind the wheel. He’s 37. It’s time.). I’m getting used to life in the passenger seat, and realising that I don’t always have to be planning and controlling. I can just sit back and enjoy the ride.
Enjoying the ride, and the view.
Even my air freshener is happy.
I’m letting go. There’s more laughter, more joy, more wine. There is more peace.
The more I think about this precious window of time, the more I want to do with it. My mum and I have been talking about taking a trip together, and looking at affordable holiday deals, eager to create memories to carry us through the long months of separation ahead. This year will be forever remembered, and the 2012 holidays we share will become the stories we carry with us, to be retrieved during moments of homesickness, or shared over future dinners and family gatherings, before being safely tucked away again until the next time they are needed.
I want to share everything I love about travel with my mum – the sights, the sounds, the colours, the people, the food and the beauty of a newly discovered destination. But I know now that I don’t have to leave home to do that. I can do it right here, over a glass of Merlot, a lazy afternoon in the garden or a surprisingly delicious bowl of courgette (that’s zucchini to you American folks) spaghetti.
Because the present is exactly that – a present, a gift. And it is just as important for those I share it with as it is for me. Just as I will look back on these times, so too will they. I want this present to truly be a gift we all hold dear for the rest of our lives.
Because time is fleeting. That’s the way of the world.
It’s up to us to get out of our own way and allow ourselves to see the world and our place in it. Because, as I am learning, it’s one hell of a killer view.
You have to go wholeheartedly into anything in order to achieve anything worth having.
– Frank Lloyd Wright
So here I go, wholeheartedly living now, and enjoying each day as it comes.
Because it’s totally worth having.